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Whatever’s tearing you apart, the house already knows about it. It’ll use it against you.

The world is a filthy place, It’s a filthy goddamn horror show. 

I questioned my sanity when I first found out, but this house, this house will make you a believer.

They should have told us not to get attached to the characters before the show started airing.

‘Something’s changed in you… for me. You’re distant, cold. And I don’t know what I’ve done, but I’ll leave you alone from now on, if that’s what you want. Is that what you want? You know why I’ll leave you alone? Because I care about your feelings more than mine. I love you. There I said it, not just on that chalkboard. I wouldn’t have let anybody or anything hurt you. I’ve never felt that way about anyone.’

I couldn’t stop staring into his big brown eyes. The words I had just heard. They were changing everything. His eyes were begging me to let him in, to let him love me. To love him back. I couldn’t promise all that, not just then. I could feel the way we connected though. Both attracted to the darkness. Or maybe, was there more to it in reality? I remained speechless for another moment. The look in his eyes was overwhelming. He needed me so much he couldn’t stand it. ‘Come here.’ I whispered as I got to the sitting position. He got down by my side. Tears were slowly falling down his cheeks. I wiped one with hand, I grabbed his face kindly so we would face each other. He was waiting. In pain. ‘I love you.’- I whispered. A light naive smile appeared on his face. He could have been easily mistaken for a 8-year old who gets a new toy after a moment of sadness. ‘I love you and I believe you but….’ My voice broke down. ‘You need to tell me what you’ve done. Right into my face. No hiding.’ He looked at me as if he had not understood what I had said to him. ‘But Violet, what have I done?’ ‘You’ve done bad things Tate. Really bad things.’ He seemed lost in my words. He blinked. Another tear feel down. ‘Why would I do bad things?’ ‘How did you die, Tate?’ ‘I was killed, in this room. By policemen.’ ‘Why?’ ‘I d-d-don’t remember.’ He stuttered. ’I won’t be with somebody who lies to me. You know that.’ His face was sad again, he was fighting with himself as he spoke to me. ’Violet, I really don’t…’ ‘You’re lying!’ I was surprised at how the pitch of my voice changed and so was he. I stood up and so did Tate as a reaction to my behavior. I spoke with anger, tiredness & desperation. ‘I need to hear it. Or I won’t be with you.’ ‘There is nothing to be said Violet!’ ‘I won’t be with you.’ I repeated listlessly. ‘What are you even saying?’ He was confused and also scared. ‘I’m saying…Go away Tate.’ ‘What? No!’ I saw an expression of panic on his face. Fear, deeply in these big brown eyes. ‘You’re all I want! You’re all I have’ ‘Tell me what you’ve done!’ I shouted. ‘No, I haven’t …. I haven’t done anything!’ ‘LIAR! YOU HAVE KILLED PEOPLE TATE! THOSE KIDS THAT HAUNTED US ON HALLOWEEN! YOU MURDERED THEM! I TRUSTED YOU AND AND….. YOU FUCKING RAPED MY MOTHER! ‘ I watched my words wound him like bullets. He suddenly shrinked, kneeled down in front of me. He completely lost it. ‘Fix me, Violet. Please, fix me!’ ‘You cannot be fixed!’ ‘You love me, you’ve said that you loved me. So help me, Violet. If you wanted me once…’ ‘I still want you.’ He touched my hand with his then kissed it slowly. It was hard for me to terminate this moment. The feeling of his lips on my skin…. I would have traded my life for it. This is why it was painful to do what I had to do. My hand escaped his fingers. ‘It is unforgettable what you’ve done, Tate. As much as I love you, I can’t let this go.’ He hid his face inside of his hands. I heard sobbing. It was just a moment before my own eyes filled up with tears. ‘No more playing a brave girl, Violet’. – I thought. ‘Will you let me say my goodbye before you tell me to go?’ – he asked. I nodded. I wasn’t sure what he meant but I had a feeling I really needed that goodbye myself. He looked into my eyes once again. Just like the first time he was around. When he saw right through me. I wished I could look at that face and love it without feeling shame and disgust. I wished… but then I realized this was what I fell in love with. He was never who I imagined him to be. He was never a sweet guy from the neighborhood – I fell for the mystery. And now it was finally revealed. He left a kiss on my lips, not forcing me into it. It was like the final essence of what had ever been and would never be again. Just when I found him backing off I wrapped my arms around him to postpone the moment of parting of our ways. When it was all done he looked at me again. I saw how he tried to pull himself together. He seemed to have hope despite the fact that I was really single-minded about this. ‘I love you, Violet.’ – he whispered as I closed my eyes. I felt his lips upon my cheek. ‘Goodbye Tate.’ – I whispered back. And then that feeling was gone and inspite of everything bad I had felt towards him – the hatred, pain and sadness that he’d caused – my heart filled up with grief but also hope, that I will see his smile again one day and that maybe, just maybe, I will be able to overlook his mistakes and forgive him. Let my heart take the lead over my head.

I feel like I’m doomed for all of eternity.

I wanna be a pretty girl… for Halloween!

Every time I find my heart breaking just a sliver for you, I suddenly remember. You made this mess for yourself.

You think that Jesus is going to save you?

Whaaaat: new family will move into the house in s2?

So glad Violet & Tate are staying there forever then!!!

I thought you weren’t afraid of anything.

I kill people I like.

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